Little Thing Yet The Most Important Thing Called LOVE

Hello My Twisted World...



When we talk about love, in most cases, 

no one ever sees it coming.

It comes out of a sudden and out of nowhere. 

It comes in a way that you least expected.

For whatever reason it may hold,

You know, at that very moment,

Your little world is complete.

It is obviously not a simple thing.

Although, many people often take it lightly or even take it for granted.

As the result, they might have to call it,

The thing that got away in the end of the story.

Most people experience it.

But only a few would have an happy ending.

Some cases are due to the pride,

Some are because of the in-conducive circumstances.

Most of them is because

Both parties have stopped trying

And their feelings are not as strong as before.

For those who are aware of the importance of it,

They call it LOVE

It is when

They can fully embrace the love affection,

Understand each other in the most outrageous ways possible.

And accept every flaw and every weakness in each other life,

Knowing that no one is perfect in the relationship and

They are bound to keep the love grows, 

Even in the most ridiculous period of time.

Then again, 

Due to the complexity,

Even those who have called it LOVE

Would end up miserably

And might find it hurt in the end.

Truth to be told,

You can never find a perfect love 

from this BROKEN world.

Every relationship has its own flaws

Where you can never find endless satisfaction.

It might satisfy you in one period of time but 

There are moments when you had enough of it.

Still, do not give up!

Our true satisfaction only comes from the ETERNAL LOVE

We are not meant to love with our broken pieces of heart.

Our heart must be whole again in the ETERNAL LOVE

In order for us to begin in loving someone else.

1 John 4:19

¹⁸ There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. ¹⁹ We love because he first loved us.

Cheers,

Lil' Miss Something

All Too Well

Hello my twisted world,

In this post I will be talking about the song that I have been crazy in love with in the past few weeks. My relationship with music is always based on the similarity of my feelings and the lyrics from the song. I always find comfort in songs whenever I feel confuse, happy, hurt or anything. It feels like I can somehow relate to the feeling the song writer had when he or she wrote the song and I can get the message that they have been beautifully arrange into a song. In this case, most of my favourite songs are those with the story behind it. Not just a catchy melody but the message that I could relate to.

The song is coming from the Country Music's Reigning Queen, Ms. Taylor Swift!

Although her latest album, Red, is not really country anymore but I enjoy some of her songs because of the realness of the lyrics. I used to like all her songs without exception. I mean, her music is great, the lyrics are awesome and her voice is great. But for her new album, her music has somehow changed more to the pop music rather than country so I have lost interest in some tracks in the album Red. I am not saying that her music is not good anymore. No! Her music is still great! It is just that because I am not so into pop music.

Luckily, out of 22 tracks in the album I can still pick some favourites. My first pick will be the track number 5 with the title of "All Too Well".

This song somehow has reminded me about my post relationship condition where I still could picture every memories I had with him and I could remember them all too well. When she begins in the bridge with

"And I know it's long gone,

And that magic's not here no more,

And I might be okay,

But I'm not fine at all."

Snap! It really touched my heart and I knew from that very words, I will have this song on repeat in my iPhone for the next few months.

I might seem a little over dramatic towards the lyrics but I am a little fragile with relationship. I am not a kind of person who is fast to forget and it takes me quite some times to recover from the sting of the pain after a relationship. I know I may seem strong and tough from the outside but in my mind and in my heart, I know that I am not that strong. Sometimes, I still find myself crying at nights over things that I know has already over. I am not being fake here because I know and I accept that it is over. It is just my nature that I find it hard to move on that quickly. 

I only share a real close relationship once with someone I really care about. When it was over, I made a promise to myself that I would not jump into another relationship unless I could at least think about the future together with him. In other words, I want it to be a serious relationship because I know that I could not handle another heart break. But, little did I know, I am not that smart and sometimes I got carried away by my feelings and there, I had put my heart in the position to be broken again. 

"Maybe we got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much,

And maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'til you tore it all up.

Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well.

Hey, you call me up again just to break me like a promise.

So casually cruel in the name of being honest.

I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here

Cause I remember it all, all, all... too well."

After all, I know that every person in my life was or is or will be there for a reason. Every person is meant to cross my path for a reason. It is either for me to become a blessing for them or for me to learn something from them. 

Look at closely to the people around you. Yes! Even those who hurt you! They are there not just by accident. Learn to look at things or people more closely. Understand that every person in your life actually means something. They might be harsh on you or they might have hurt you severely. But just like me, in the end of their story in your life, you will always find that they actually have taught you something and because of them you have become stronger than you were yesterday. 

Cheers,

Lil' Miss Something

Jump Back On (Again)

Hello my twisted world...

Wow! I can't believe I have neglected my blog again. It is so hard for me to commit to this online blogging because I have so many things to do at the same time. I am not trying to find excuses but yeah sometimes it is hard for me just to jump on my lappie and start typing. But, I still keep journaling in my little note book every time I feel like I can't bear it anymore. I do not talk a lot so to ease my mind I share it through journaling or for times like this, it is on my blog-which is rare but I will try to do more of it.

From the last post, you guys have known little parts of me. It might be only a small part but for me, that's cool enough to begin with. I always believe that greater things always come from small things whether you realise it or not. We might begin from just small part of my story but I am sure it will be great.

It has been a year and 2 months since my last post and during those times, so many things have changed. There are some goals that I can finally achieve, and there are always some that are left unaccomplished. There are some problems that I can finally find the solutions for, but there are always new problems created along the way. Sometimes you are aware of the problem but most of the time it just comes crashing down into your world and rain on your parade.

Our lives are subject to change and I believe we all know this. But what we sometimes do not realise is that the changes come without any notice. It feels like our lives can change just in the blink of an eye or the snap of your fingers. And that's scary, at least for me.

I remember last year, my focus in life was to complete my bachelor degree so that I could put my nicest and biggest smile on my graduation day in the graduation gown, surrounded by the people I care and love dearly. I finally did it according to my original plan and I was so happy about it. Of course life was not easy back then but at least it was less complicated. I was still a student back then and all my responsibility is to study well and achieve great result in the end of every semester and I kinda did it. *Yey me!*

Towards the end of last year, I thought I had found something but unfortunately, it was found only to be lost again the next year. I once believed that I finally had it all but you can't always count on that because even on the top of the mountain you still will encounter wind and rain. For this matter, I haven't found the best solution yet so I can't really say much. But what I believe now is that it happened only to teach me a lesson so that I can do better next time.

It is in times like this, that you can finally look at things closer and think about them more clearly than you have ever done before. During those moments I learn that I can't control everything that happens to me and there are some circumstances that even though I try my best to avoid them, still in the end I find myself lost in it. But those things and situations are not there only to make my life miserable. There are far greater reasons why I have been put in the situations I am not comfortable to be or why I met people, trust them with my heart and found myself hurt in the end. Time has passed and I can't undone what has been done. The only thing left is my decision whether I still fall deep into grief or recover and learn from it only to be a better person.

One thing that I can't help to share with you is that although it feels like you are in this world alone and no one seems to be serious to fight with you in the battle, there's someone who is always faithful. Since the very beginning, He created you on purpose and before you were born and the very moment you were, He beamed with joy. He created you and trust me He is not the kind of creator who abandon His creation right after the creation fails to fulfil the designated purpose. He is the kind of creator who pursues us even in our darkness, take us back again on track, and walk together, side by side, until we finally reach the end of the track.

It is only because of His grace that I can still be here in this world, 100% healthy and still breathing. Through life, He has shown me His blessings, His favour and His faithfulness. Through tears and joy that I experience in life, God is gracious because that way I can see His faithfulness in my life and that is the only thing that makes this life worth living and fighting for. It is because I can see and I can learn to know and witness the presence of God in each and every moment of my life, whether it is joyful or hurtful moments. Trust me that although you are in the battle that does not seem to end soon, you need to cherish every tears from it because at times like that when you draw closer to God, He will draw closer to you. You might not seem to won the battle or worst you might seem to have lost all you have in the battle but when you can taste the presence of God even in those stormy nights, I guarantee that you have found the purpose of your battle in that very moment. That is to find Him and to know Him more personally in order to know that we are here in this world not merely to make a history but to live in such a way that through our lives, God is glorified.




Cheers,



Lil' Miss Something

Back Again :)

Hello my twisted world...

I have been gone for so long! Is it nearly a year or two? :\

The reason I haven't been posting something in my old blog is 

1. I completely have forgotten my log in details for my old one 
2. Lately I have been busy and I don't have any idea of what to write 

Apologise if any of you has been questioning about my posts...

Now I'm back on the track!

My new blog will be http://little-misssomething.blogspot.com.au/

You all are very welcome to come and visit, comment and also ask some questions or maybe you want to share it with friends. I'll be more than happy if you do so. :)

As I've been vanished for a really long time, I have so much in mind that I want to share with you guys!

To recap everything,

1. My name is still Vanessa! Haven't changed it, in case you guys might have forgotten me. :p
2. I'm still in Sydney, undertaking my bachelor degree in Professional Accounting. This is my last year and I'll be graduating this coming October! *yey!*
3. Besides going to uni, I also have some other activities in church and have a part time job
4. I've been in Sydney since October 2010 so I've stayed in Sydney for roughly 1.5 years.
5. I love Sydney and my small family I have here. <3 

Now as you have already had some ideas of who I am, where I am and what I'm doing at the moment, it is easier for me to share some stories with you in the next coming posts... :)

This is it for my come back and I'll see you guys in my next post.

stay blessed and safe... :)

Regards,

Lil' Miss Something 

Never Grow Up

Today I'm officially 40 days away from home..... :(
Remember my last post about Taylor Swift?
There's a song titled "Never Grow Up", this song really makes me cry and I just really want to come home.
Part of the song that I really like is

"Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room, memorize what is sounded like when your dad gets home, remember the footsteps, remember the words said, and all your lil' sister's favourite song, little brother's favorite toys. I just realized everything I had is someday gonna be gone. So here I am in my new apartment in a big city, wish I'd never grown up" 

I think I can feel the way Taylor felt when she wrote this song for her parents because if I had a chance to be a kid forever, it would be really nice. You don't have to face all the problems yourself because you mom and dad will help you for sure. Moreover, when you were child, mom and dad always understood what you want. it really makes everything seems so simple and easier than now.

"If the one you call best friend is the one who always understands you, your best friends are only GOD and your Mom"

I agree with that quotation because no matter how close you are with your friends, you are still fighting with each other if something doesn't go on your way. You still make mistakes and you can't easily forgive each other.

God knows you from the inside out so He always understands you and always leads you to the right way. The matter is we sometimes very stubborn and we don't believe in Him so we have some arguments with Him. It ends up when we just realized that He is right and we are wrong. The good thing is, you don't have to feel embarrassed because He always forgives us no matter how bad we are. 

It's just the same with our mom. No matter how bad we are, our mom is the first one who will forgive us even before we ask for forgiveness. The matter is just because our mom isn't God so sometimes she can't just understand our mind because we all change. It takes time for her to learn and then understand what we are thinking, and dealing with but eventually, she is the one who really understands us more than our best friends do.

Life is tough but it is simply just a game. 

There are always a ditch to make you more tougher

a turn right to make you wiser

and finally a U TURN to make you remember your family who always there whenever you need them.

*Miss you guys so much..:)

Cheers,

Lil' Miss Something

Taylor Swift, Speak Now Album

Just downloaded the latest album of Country Music's Reigning Queen, Ms Taylor Swift.The album titled Speak Now which all the tracks are written by Taylor Swift, herself.

Taylor Swift has been recording her feelings in songs since she was just a young child. Her disappointments, triumphs, anger, fears, love and friendships have been well-documented in songs such as “Tim McGraw,” “Picture To Burn,” Fifteen,” and now "Mine", “Back To December,” and “Innocent” and all of the brand new songs from the album Speak Now. Taylor Swift admitted in an interview with VH1 that if you walk into her life, you may end up being a “character” in one of her songs.  The 20-year-old singer-songwriter urges everyone to write down how they feel – “in a journal, in a diary, in a letter you will never send to anybody, because it’s so important to diagnose your feelings, save them in some form of writing, because it just helps you feel like a more organized person.”

“Through the past two years, I’ve been through a lot of things that I have been dying to write about and talk about. There were a lot of things that I wanted to say in the moment but couldn’t, and this album is my opportunity to do that.” Taylor Swift via UStream Chat

Front Album

Back (Track List)

 Speak Now Track List (lyrics):
1. “Mine” lyrics
2. “Sparks Fly” lyrics
3. “Back to December” lyrics
4. “Speak Now” lyrics
5. “Dear John” lyrics
6. “Mean” lyrics
7. “The Story of Us” lyrics
8. “Never Grow Up” lyrics
9. “Enchanted” lyrics
10. “Better Than Revenge” lyrics
11. “Innocent” lyrics
12. “Haunted” lyrics
13. “Last Kiss” lyrics
14. “Long Live” lyrics

Read what the critics are saying!

“The most musically diverse [album] of her career…. And it’s excellent too, possibly her best.”
~ The New York Times

“Brilliant. The stone-hearted among [the cynics] who listen to Speak Now will find it hard to complain that Swift somehow stole that Best Album Grammy for Fearless. Entirely self-penned, sans the collaborations of the previous albums, it’s an enormous breakthrough in songwriting maturity….It’ll be decades before she’s holding her peace.”
~ The Hollywood Reporter

““Dear John” might be her masterpiece to date, or at least the most bracingly, joltingly honest song you’ve heard any major performer have the nerve to put on record in years.”  
~ Yahoo Music

“Taylor Swift has again achieved the near-impossible…with a third bundle of melodic, cathartic country-pop. Speak Now is another unrestrained grand-slam. 4 Stars”  
~ Us Weekly 

The album is in store now....
Check it out guys...

Cheers,

Lil' Miss Something

A Bit about Me and My Twisted World

Vanessa is an ordinary name for a girl which has a meaning of a butterfly. In 18^th May 1993, Vanessa became my name. It was suggested by my uncle, Mak Hadiyanto and both my parents agreed with that name. So here I am now, a 17-year-old girl named Vanessa.

Just like the ordinary name, I’m also an ordinary teenage girl who lives an extraordinary life. Well, sometimes I just feel that my life is dull but actually if you still can live your life, whatever your life might be, it is still precious. That’s why I call it an extraordinary life.

I have a big family. My main family consists of 6 people. They are my mommy, my daddy, my brothers, my sister, and I. I have one older brother, one little sister, and one little brother. I still have 2 grandmas and 2 grandpas. Besides them, I also have so many cousins, aunties, and uncles. So I really have one big family.
I have a closer relationship with my mother’s family rather than my dad’s because my family live in Makassar which means in the same city with most of my mom’s family while my dad’s is in Pare-pare. The different location makes us rarely meet each other which make us not really close. I only spend time in Pare-pare if it is Chinese New Year or my grandparent’s birthday.

But now my grandparents from my mom’s side and my mom’s brothers are living in Jakarta so we rarely see each other now. But we somehow have managed to spend holiday together. Last Christmas we were going to Malaysia and Singapore. Last vacation we spent time in China. There were 13 of us so it’s really fun although it was rather complicated too. (I will post the pictures and the detail of our trip in China later ^^,)

Besides spending time with family, I also love spending time with my friends and of course with myself too. I have some friends who go to the same school with me since I was in elementary school. We used to spend much time together at school and even outside school. But since high school we were busy with our own activities, communities, and problems that we rarely spent time together. I also joined the acceleration class while most of my friends took the regular one. So it made us difficult to spend time together. During my high school time I spend most of my time with my classmates. We also had a great time together. =)
Well as an ordinary teenage girl, I also love shopping, chatting with my friends, watching movies, reading novels, writing, listening to music, exercising, teasing my brothers and sisters even my friends, breaking the rules, and sometimes spending times doing nothing. I also like hanging out with my friends, having fun together, and baking cake with my mom (sometimes).

At the age of 17, I graduated from high school and decided to continue my study in Sydney, Australia. I’m going there on 30^th September with my mommy, daddy, and both my grandparents from my mom’s side. I have so many people who come with me =). Actually, besides accompanying me there they will also attend my brother’s graduation. For my grandparents it is their first grandson’s graduation and for my parents it is also the first one. So it’s a meaningful moment for both my parents and my grandparents.

Well it’s a bit about me and my twisted world. The rest of it will be on the next posts. Hope you guys enjoy reading it.




Cheers,

Lil' Miss Something